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Gwenda [userpic]

ellos!!! come back

November 30th, 2007 (10:26 pm)

ellos there
i've come back coz i wanna chat and stuff
(i warn u i'm quite typisy atm)
update from b4 
i've got a wonderful boyfriend ^_^ 
which i live with
...actually maily coz i was chucked out of my home by my step-mother
i'm always on myspace if u wanna add me it's www.myspace.com/lossemare

Gwenda [userpic]

(no subject)

August 25th, 2006 (01:21 pm)
current song: The drugs don't work -by The Verve

"sian u should have a social life!"
why rn't i'm aloud 1? 
i've never been any good at the rl thing
too fucking shy, too fucking quiet, too fucking ununderstandable, too skatty, too nauive, too sensitive
i think everyone gives up on me
or i don't give enough effort

Gwenda [userpic]

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May 11th, 2006 (05:51 pm)

haven't been to college today, i've been ill =(
but been a good chance to make ponpons for materials and techs
if i'm feeling better i'll be going to london tomorrow with college. we should be going to Tate britian and ICA

My brother got a fine and 20 months driving ban
i always seem to panic to much

i brought and watched naria =D
i don't know it wasn't quite as good as i thought it would be but i loved Mr Tumnus!
i couldn't quite belive it was the same actor that played Macbeth in the spakespeare retold

i would like to make some Mr tumnus icons but does any1 know any good narnia websites with pics please..?

i made this elijah wallpaper today
it's not very good and i think it has something missing =/

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Gwenda [userpic]

"no one can make you feel inferior without your consent" -Eleanor Roosevelt

May 10th, 2006 (08:23 am)

Good morning people!
i'm going to go through the friends pages tonight ^_-
i was looking through before and what i usually do is go through and stuff i want to look at or read or reply i put as a new window and go back in bit....
...but i was doing that before and my computer crashed! the screen started moving and flashing

i'm such a magpie- using a quote as my title
sorry poppithefenling
i brought a dictionary of quotes ^_^
i just opened it and picked out a quote at random and got that one

my art project is hard but interesting and shouldturn out really good
it's more indepent,
where as before we got the topic the body or food this 1 each person got a package of objects for inspiration
i tell u some more later

my bother has just gone to court =(
he was drunk and drived *shakes head*
i know u shouldn't do it and it shouldn't go unpunished
and it's so easy to say yeah who ever does it should go to prision or whatever
but it chances when it's your brother
=( he's the one thats always looked after me been there for me
he's been better to me than my dad!
i feel so bad becaus i've never said this to him
tricia was scaring me and saying he might go to prison!
i thought i would just huggle on to him so they can't take him!!!
i remember the day after when i woke up and fould out all about it, i still went to college but walking down the high street to college i just started crying =(

well i'll be worried all day and i sholdn't of just made that entry because i'm thinking all about what i just said

all have a good day Xx

Gwenda [userpic]

(no subject)

April 3rd, 2006 (10:11 pm)

spring is offically here
blossom is out
and it's very beatuiful,
some of it looks like snow

because i'm a quiz whore.... Collapse )
Edit: forgot to say, my marks:
Drawing - pass
Materials and techniques- pass
Sculpture -pass
computers in art - merit +
painting - merit
print - Destinution!!!
(sorry showing off a bit there *blushes* ... and it's a shame that i can't even spell it right =( i did try but all the different options on the spell checker comfused me and i didn't know which was which)
and i haven't been given my ceramics yet

Gwenda [userpic]

"We do not inherit the earth from our ancestors, we borrow it from our children"

April 3rd, 2006 (09:04 pm)

current mood: complacent

i was thinking if i had been brought up in a family were u had to speak up to be heard or get what u need, would i be a more confidenent and louder speaking person
however would that make me different in other aspects, like if i was more confidenent i would take more operatines
or would I be completely different and have other traits/ skills/ abilities and maybe not have the same interests.

i've stolen poppithefenling idea of using quotes for titles ^_^
that 1 is a native american proverb, can't rember where i got it though...
i saw a dictionary of quotations in Ottakars (th book shop) i so want that! also it has a waterhouse painting on the cover =D *points at icon*

Gwenda [userpic]

(no subject)

April 1st, 2006 (03:46 pm)

snagged from various people =P

April Fool
10th_1216eggs your cat.
aravishermionepaints your dog orange.
carrotqueentrims your hedge into a replica of the Venus de Milo.
elle_4youbuys you a Russian Bride.
elrawienTPs your head.
elvenblessedhas a hundred large anchovy pizzas and a diet coke delivered to your door.
faerie_danceglues your Russian Bride to your bedroom ceiling.
falling_silverlegally changes your name to MoonBeam Cappa.
hammil77smiles. All the time.
lukezsells your elderly relatives on Ebay.
Prank Me

Gwenda [userpic]

maybe i should stop acting so childreness

April 1st, 2006 (03:00 pm)

current mood: mellow

"we do not inherit the earth frm our ancestors, we borrow it from our children" - Native american Proverb

Gwenda [userpic]

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April 1st, 2006 (01:34 pm)
current location: bedroom in front of pc
current mood: awake
current song: Star Sailor - Way to fall

ellos there

hope ur all well! .... r u all?

college has been fun
hard work but fun
all the art is great except art history, and key skills. (notice how i hate the subjects where i have to sit infront of a computer doing stuff like excel and writing essays =(  ) except i do like computers in art, were u do sit infront of the computer but we're on photoshop, 
i've never been able to just sit down and concentrate on something or one thing for a long amount of time
even when i'm on here i last about 20 mins then start playing, ficking or destroying something around me O_O 
when i was in english or maths my pens would get all broken and fixed and everything would just get rearranged

on sunday night i worked till midnight and got up at 5 to finish off my work
and by the way i feel i haven't catched up on my sleep yet  o_o or it might because i haven't been doing anything

this week has been wierd as i've had it off
and i've handed everything in
there's nothing to do this week, well actually we have to go to a gallery and make a presentation and give it to the class (! Dear God, help me!!!!!!!!)
but we have the easter holiday to do that which is after next week.
i'm generally a very lazy person so u (and me quite franky) probably thought this week would be heaven for me but it's boring incrediably boring

the dog, bracken had hurt his leg the muscle or something =S (i know i should know)
so he had to have an operation, were they had to actually brake the leg to be able to fix it o_O
so thats partly why u've been so bored because i haven't been able to come up stairs on to my computer so much,
then i would of been here =D   but poor bracken needed looking after

i don't think i've said but i've got a puppy! Murphy, he's orginially a dog from irland, 
he was going to be put down! =( because the owner couldn't look after him and his broters 
but the rescue people rescued him and brought him to england
and took him to a special church service in the cathedral in Chelmsford for pets and tricia and dad came back with him! ^_^
that usually happen in my house, my dad is a sucker for animals

at college we made this wierd dreamspace thingy
have a look - http://www.dreamspace-agis.com/webesp/index.htm
the 1 i was helping with (with my class) is in the college at the moment but it's going to be moved to Germany (i think it was germany)

i keep buying books faster than i can read them! =O
i'm currently reading "The Magician's Guild"
it's different and interesting how it's more about the slums and people there.
there's the gangs- like the youth and the thievies - they are the dangerous people, that kill u if u do something wrong =S
and the magicians are basically act like stuck up lords or soemhting
i'm never any good at describing books or anything really.
also i brought "memoirs of a Giesha" wanna read it before i see the film, the film looks so good.
after doing a project for art history about eastern influences in western art, i've developed a big interest in eastern art.
i brought a panda picture from "china world" it's shop in southend
i wanna buy this other 1 i saw too it's £10 so not bad =D
also i brought (yes another something =P ) "if nobody speaks of remarkable things" by Jon McGregor
i only read the 1st few pages and it's wonderful.
the very first page inside and the back page has all quotes from magazines and newspapers 
so here some of them so u can get an idea
-"A Sensationally accomplished debut... a convincing and moving vision of comtemporary Britian" - Sunday times
-"This novel owes as much as it does to poetry as it does to prose. Its opening, an invocation of the life of the city, is strongly reminiscent of Auden's Night Mail in its hypnotic portarit of industrialised society... An assured debut" -Erica Wagner, The Times
-"this is an ordinary world, shabby and melancholy, but McGregor describes it with mesmeric power... you won't read anything much more poigant than this" - Daily Telrgraph

*Xx Lossemare
PS *hugs* to everyone that could be bothered to read all of that! =D =P

Gwenda [userpic]


January 20th, 2006 (09:31 pm)

i've come back
i got a nudge from poppithefenling which shows some1 missed me =P
i don't know what to say really
college is fun (too much work but thats me)
today in print lesson i forgot my soft ground etching o_O hehee...
so i drew pictures of penguins killing rabbits all lesson ..lol... i know i'm disturbed *blushes*
kerry in my class has turned into a very good friend and we have the same (disturbing) sense of humour and love the same music
i'm going out tomorrow night =D a place called chinnerys, a band r playing from my town who usually play at woodham rock (a youth rock night type of thing)
but chinnerys isn't like that *glavly shakes head*
=P *waves jack daniels bottle*
i've joined another journally site www.sillygoth.com
also i've set up a myspace
have a look! =D
u can see my newest hair cut! and yes it's like keira knightleys (like in domino)
also i've been getting myself sorted out, all the stuff with my depression.
i use the term very losely because i'm not too sure if i really have it but i've been down for ever so long =(

from now i'm going to try and stay up to date here =D because i love u guys! <3 *looks at all the people running away*
but i think i really really need to cut down my communities =S because i have sooo much work from college (even though i'm so bad at doing my homework)

Gwenda [userpic]

(no subject)

November 6th, 2005 (02:56 pm)

current mood: i smell dinner! sunday roast!
current song: The music- getaway

hullo! as u might of noticed i haven't been around a lot (almost at all for a long time). and i've had my hair cut! i asked and took in pics of keira's hair (how she had it in Domino) so i have it like it like that but it doesn't quite look so cool! =(
because i'm so stupid (stupid as in being a lazy git!) i've got behind with my art and we have an assement at christmas so i'm going on Image hosted by Photobucket.com till christmas =( (u can take that hiatus banner if u want to use when u like just as long as u credit! =D please...)

i'll still take part in icon concests =D

i fould narnia_icontest!!! =D it's great join it!

i'm leaving a present. a pic spam! of the LWW or The Chronicles of Narnia, The lion, the witch and the wardrobe! i'm looking forward to it sooo much! if u like lotr i SHOULD like this. weta are working with them (so the props, swords and stuff will be excellent! =D )

 here's links to LWW websites (and trailers)

Image hosted by Photobucket.com hehee.. couldn't resist!

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Gwenda [userpic]

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October 15th, 2005 (04:30 pm)

can't think of anything to say (probably just being lazy!)
http://www.toomuchsexy.org/index/weblog/comments/crying_men/ - i'm doing Sam Taylor-Wood for art history i have to do a essay about her. the link has pictures of loads of actors crying! =( *pets them all - or the nice looking ones* -thanks to silindro for the site

i've been reading "The Lion, The whitch and The wardrobe," i wanted to read it before i saw the film
it makes me feel like a little kid ^_^
never read much when i was younger so i'm making up for what i lost. hehehee.. =P

my dad got the "Da Vinci Code," might read that after him

A faerie watches over you. You are charming and
cunning. You have a way with people that you
can lead them and they will follow. You're
active and ambitious. You're smart and
outgoing. You're faerie is always by your
side. Whether or not you may always see it,
your faerie is always there, keeping an eye on
you and protecting you. You're faerie is like
your conscious. It will always lead you down
the right path.

Who is your soul guardian?
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Gwenda [userpic]

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October 8th, 2005 (07:41 pm)

Ahhhhhhhhhh................ i missed the repect of Lost! Noooooooooooooooooooooooo...................................................!!!!!!!!!!
i'm watching Elizabeth I with Hugh Dancy in it! he plays Charles Tichborne he was the one that wrote a poem about how his "prime of youth is but a frost of cares,..."
i surpose i can see the subtitles to know who an actor in, he has long hair =P he looks like an elf ^_^
Hugh Dancy looks very good in it, and acting in very good

Gwenda [userpic]

(no subject)

October 8th, 2005 (05:40 pm)

Hi. i am alive! =P =D
i'm never a very organized person so usually end up with me negletting stuff
but my tutor gave me an action plan and i'm not allowed to do any work today! =P
i went to the Tate modern (London) on wednesday. i fell asleep on the train coming back on wednesday and nearly missed my stop! =O

a dom pic spam just because i feel like it and i don't think i've done one before....Collapse )

Gwenda [userpic]

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October 2nd, 2005 (02:54 pm)
current song: Kasabian- Club Foot (extremly loud!!!!)

i was wondering how do you make your journal friends only?
how do you make your entries friends only by default?

i can't think of anything at the moment. i'm just in one of those moods where everthing seems so messed up and i have a complete block.
i've been making icons ^_^ only 4 in like 4 hours! thats BAD! they are elijah icons thanks to silindro
me and my friends got shouted at by chavs twice yesterday. the first time we waved to them while they just insulted us, it works u should try it. there were the down the road though so if they decide to chase us we could run away quite easily
the second time they were drunk and they were too close so we just ignored them totally.
incase anyone doesn't know what "chavs" are they are stupid fucking idiots and are extremly uncultured and look like clones of each other and they give all us teenagers a bad name because they go and get drunk and start fights - when drunk and not and get pregant at 13 - of course not the boys but u know =P *giggles - vivid imagination*

Gwenda [userpic]

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September 27th, 2005 (06:05 pm)

i've actually got into making graphics now =D
i made fasion photography ones (boyd holbrook and travis... )
wait a min....... ah. the simpsons just had to put it om!

quiz......... it's post to be an insulting one o_OCollapse )

Gwenda [userpic]


September 26th, 2005 (09:37 pm)

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in tutorial today in college we had i mean i had a teacher helper come in and tell me how i'm doing all my annotion wrong and telling me to write about formal elements and colour for a carcoal drawing. Charcoal!! black! black and white are not colours! thats why artists don't use black paint!

i'll find something else to talk about other than college one day

Gwenda [userpic]

(no subject)

September 25th, 2005 (12:37 pm)

*raises eye brow*

You scored 60% kindness, 36% courage, 34% seedy past, and 58% secretiveness!

"For the record, my belt HAS dropped a notch. I'm a big guy. It's gonna be a while before you're going to want to give me a piggy back ride."

Dude, you are Hurley. You are a kind soul with some terrible luck. While you're always lending a helping hand, you're not exactly the bravest guy on the island. What you do is even more important - keep people entertained. The only problem you've got is that whole jinxed numbers thing. You're so secretive, no one on the island even knows that you're a multimillionaire! Let it out, dude. There's no use trying to keep it all bottled up inside, man.

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Gwenda [userpic]

(no subject)

September 24th, 2005 (05:09 pm)

i feel bad for my lack of comments, and lurking (yes i have been reading but not much of the commenting)

and it might be for awhie but i've been going on my msn messager so feel free to add me ^_^ my e-mail is rhiannonakaeowyn@hotmail.com yes it's long =P

there's not much to say but now i've said that i'm going to write loads =P

come to think about it i'm really enjoying college. non-stop art no going off and going an hour of sciance with a teacher who didn't like me then going to do an hour of maths with a teacher that talked for 3 quarters of an hour! then english which was just so boring and if you didn't share the same point of view as the techer you were wrong.

it takes an hour to get to and back from college. and my student card looks so bad, i'm yellow because of the lighting. but i haven't forgotten it yet, u need it to get in and if u forget it 3 times your tutor is told then after more times you have to see the prinicble


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i got appected at elite_stills *dances*</span>




Gwenda [userpic]

(no subject)

September 18th, 2005 (04:55 pm)
current song: Kasabian- reason is treason

i got tagged by silindro =P

"Write 20 random facts about yourself then tag the same amount of people as minutes it takes you to write the facts. If you're tagged it's your turn."

  1. i'm a lotr fan! (u won't guess!)
  2. i'm a bit of a history geek
  3. i'm listening to Kasabian! a great band. get their music! (i'm really strangling here) they are touring in american
  4. i seem to like depressing music
  5. i'm addicted to the computer
  6. the computer is my social life! (i'm so sad!)
  7. i actually very rarely get nervous, like for college i wasn't nervous
  8. i think i must have a sign on me saying to people not to talk to me coz people never seem to wanna
  9. i'm in a sense a romanticist (my love for art noveau and pre-raphaelite, and tolkien really shows that)
  10. i like silence
  11. ahhhh........ i'm running out of things! i'm that interesting. this answers my question of why people seem to use me! for no.11 i'm going to say - i'm a target for users, people ditch me when they find someone else
  12. i'm going to be a woman modern version of Caravaggio mahahhahhaa......
  13. so what if i'm naturally a very calm person it doesn't mean i'm sad, upset or depressed, just because i don't giggle annoyingly and don't rabbit on
  14. i love animals but not the(/for the) cute(/ness) but for the hunter (i can't stand people that like animals because they think they are cute! the fact is a cat looks at you and thinks what an idiot! or they think you are too big to kill)
  15. i need money! ^_^ and i can't get the EMA thingy =( but my parents run out of money in a week of getting paid!
  16. i don't see my doing anything with my life
  17. i want to travel, but look at no. 16 so stuff that!
  18. Lowry is my great great uncle or something - "Lowry always claimed loneliness and dissatisfaction, but one wonders to what degree he really craved anything different. As he said himself, 'Had I not been lonely, none of my work would have happened.' He deprived himself of many of life's simple pleasures - living in isolation - and the price he effectively paid to be a great artist was his happiness." - thats it, it's a family thing to be lonely! and i don't think certain parts of me (the good bits) would be the same if i wasn't lonely. also great leaders and historical characters were loners, like Jesus! (i'm no way conparing myself to him, i'm just saying
  19. i'm never with it, i'm always day dreaming, because no one talks to me and i'm lonely so i have to make up my own stuff
  20. i find a lot of religous stuff very insulting to my intelligance, i do see some of it and do agree and i'm not having a go but for example i saw this church service in america on the telly and there were a bunch of english teenagers that went and some of them had to walk out before they burst out laughing! if i was there i would of done the same. if i had to choose a relgion i had to follow i would choose something like paganism (<- romanicist coming through) but whos reading anyway and do i deverve anyone to listen to me

that took me so long! and i repeted a bit aswell. so i'm going to tag anyone that wants to be tagged! =P

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